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I just don't know how to recall this feeling. When he laid his hands next to yours. And those silly butterflies are playing inside your stomach. The feeling is really unsual. But you just hold my hand and it's a cliché. 😍
Touched out. I hear people talk about this feeling and I never understood it. I never understood how someone could cringe or feel irritated when their baby was needing them to nurse or for comfort. Almost 2 years breastfeeding and bedsharing. I felt it last night. Strong. I was mad, angry, annoyed. That my almost 2 year old won't sleep longer than 2 hours without needing me. I was angry when I looked over and my husband was sleeping soundly. I was mad that no one else can comfort Audrey at night except for me. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. Bedshare they say. You'll get more sleep, they say.
During the day I don't care how much Audrey needs to nurse. She could never break her latch during the day and it wouldn't phase me. But at night? It's getting to me. She is latched. All. Night. I need to night wean but we have an extended leave to California coming up and I know if I try now, she'll just regress in a couple weeks. But you bet your bottom dollar that when we get back, we will attempt night weaning. You can only nurse for as long as it is beneficial for BOTH mom and baby. Once one is not feeling it anymore, it will just cause frustration. And frustration isn't good.
So, here's my feelings for the day. I'm just babbling. I had to do some research on feelin touched out and I feel less guilty for how I was feeling last night. I learned it's ok to have these feelings. Don't feel guilty. If possible, take a 15 minute shower alone while daddy has baby. Take a trip to the grocery store alone. Read a book. Watch an episode of a show that's not a cartoon. Take time for YOU. Talk about your feelings and let your support system know that you need help. My husband is fantastic and will help whenever I ask. But sometimes I try to be supermom and think I can do it all on my own. I can't, and I think that's why I'm feeling this way. Don't try to be supermom unless you need to.
This is my truth. I'm tired. I love you Audrey. But I'm tired. #touchedout#touchedoutmommy#breastfeeding#bedsharing#feelings#dontfeelguilty#taketimeforyou